If you are a fan of monitor watching here at the hospital you get to see all that is going on. You can see baby's status, mom's contractions, and just about everything going on with the neighbors. The neighbors are few and far between tonight, so unless their is a late night run on place the staff greatly outnumbers the patients. I am sure that must be a nice relief for them.
Sitting up watching and worrying. I wonder how many more times I will do that in the coming years. I know everyone tells you that parenting comes somewhat naturally, but I can't help but wonder about that. Sitting here tonight I have to wonder if I will have what it takes to be the good dad our little girl will deserve. Something tells me this job is going to make all the other ones I have done in my life seem sort of easy.
In the business world you become more successful when you learn not to take things personally. When you can separate yourself personal self from the work you do your decision making gets a little better. I wonder if you do better as a parent when you always take it personally. In parenting does connecting your personal self to the decisions help you influence the life of your child the right way? I guess in both work and parenting one thing is true, if you care for the people around you, you will be happier in what you do and create light in the lives around you.
I have been watching the monitors for about 24 hours now and I can see the contractions coming in the baby's heart beat. Obviously, this does not qualify me to be a doctor, just an inquisitive observer. Tomorrow I will probably be holding our little girl and trying to understand her by what I can observe. I hope that is good enough to make me a good dad, time will tell.
LDR 284 - Labor and Delivery Room 284. If that's what it stands for, maybe there hope for me yet.
